Requiem for the Dishes by thecityoflove, literature
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Requiem for the Dishes
I did not wash
the dishes—
the ones in which I served you
a home-cooked meal—
until about two weeks ago.
I couldn’t bring myself
to wash the remnants of your presence
or to cleanse myself
of the stains caked on
clinging to the ceramic—
the only evidence
of our time together.
A couple days ago,
I threw them in a trash bag
like bodies with toe-tags
time having somehow slipped through their grasp.
Adrenaline—
my heart pounding with rage?
sadness? regret?
I cannot say for sure,
but some sort of sickness
seemed to slip through my veins
that night.
I didn’t mean to drop them,
but the loud clash and clang
of
For when they ask why II by thecityoflove, literature
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For when they ask why II
For when they ask why--
Tell them
that I climed to the highest floor
of the tallest building
because I thought that I could lift my spirit
toward heaven
ad astra per aspera
Through adversity to the stars
fixated with the idea of flight
intoxicated by the promise of light--
rays of sun
melting the ice that I have always felt
thawing my flesh from the frozen, corporeal prison
that is depression
banishing the shadows from my mind
an equinox
the promise of spring
bearing forth the promise
of an inevitable summer
from the cold, winter nights of dark memories
and childhood trauma
Tell them that when I fell
it was because I flew too close
to the sun
My name was Narcissus by thecityoflove, literature
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My name was Narcissus
I often dreamt what others thought of me--
the golden boy with golden youth and face
so fair--and all of those who turn to see
my golden hair find love and never hate.
But I could never fathom what they saw,
for I had never truly seen myself.
Or maybe my reflection's only flaw
Was that the water truly shows one's self.
Black hair, black eyes, black fate. From what I saw--
I did not know! The doubts were all I knew.
Self-love may be a standard fatal flaw,
but loathing is a talent of the few.
And so I fell from heaven, off the shore.
A flower lives; Narcissus is no more.
I do not believe that God is real by thecityoflove, literature
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I do not believe that God is real
I do not believe that God is real,
but if He was,
I am sure that He would be alive within the vibrations of the chants
which echo throughout the choir behind the altar.
He would be present in the unison force of men's voices,
and alive in the feeling of awe
that radiated through my body,
striking my core,
when I first saw St. Pius's bronze dome
which loomed over the dominion of man
grounded in the earth, but stretching outwards--
grazing the tips of heaven itself.
He would live in the gold embellished walls
and in the red marbles and frescoes
that filled my spirit with a divine-like warmth,
and in every curve
and edge
of marble
on bod
I am envious of the moon. by thecityoflove, literature
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I am envious of the moon.
I am envious of the moon
in her heavenly orbit,
For she will caress the edges of your jaw
and the soft skin of your cheeks
with pale, white fingertips at dusk,
And only she will see your shadow in the light.
She is fortunate enough to find herself
encased within a crystalline sphere
that will catch the subtle glow of your first grin
without me.
And from her throne
she can see the starlight reflected in your image,
A flicker of light for every virtue you possess,
a constellation created from a combination of your thoughts
and an accumulation of your actions,
Every hope
and every doubt,
Every success and failure
She will see when I am blind
I can not recall the exact moment when I was certain.
Instead, my memories are stained with the image of an endless sea of gold,
A halo of light falling into decay,
withering away like the yellow autumn leaves
And the sounds of summer
only distant whispers vanishing into the past.
The winter winds were rough, like the edges of an old iron bar
And in my adolescence,
I remember raking the soft pink palm of my hand against the black grain
The bare bark naked against the soft gray sky
with barren limbs outstretched,
But my thoughts were abundant with tiny tints of red and gold,
The color of heroes.
And for the first time,
As I turned to see